Is it possible to say something about nothing?

I learned a lot today.
I learned a lot about people, about myself, about my imperfections, about God.

I wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him. He alone is my rock and my salvation, my fortress where I will not be shaken.
Psalm 62:5-6

So, I feel like yesterday deserves a better post so here goes..
Senior ditch day: Basically the whole senior class takes off the Friday before prom. That is, all the seniors except for me! Although my class sizes were extremely tiny, school wasn't so bad. I got extra credit in the majority of my classes, which I can definitely use. Then after school, I got a call from Michelle telling me that we got 100% on QASA! That was basically the best news I could have gotten.. all my hard work paid off! I went to the store to find Bethany, who is my future manager, who told me that she would be transferring me towards the end of the summer. I am fine with that. I think summer is going to be so busy that it will be nice to be familiar with one aspect of my life! Then I picked up Luke from school and we went to our favorite Starbucks and talked for a while and he went with me to help me find the place I have an interview at on Monday! It wasn't a scam after all, I just got the directions a little off. It's a company called Gulf Pacific and it deals with business management. Then after driving a while, we got to dinner at YC's. It was pretty good, I hadn't been there in a while. After that we decided to go on an adventure to a music place neither of us had been to before. It's called the Wherehouse. It was so awesome! We spent a great deal of time there and helped each other find new music that we would enjoy. It was a great day!

Now, I'm waiting for my parents to stop fighting so I can go get my blood drawn. It's the kind that I have to fast before hand and so the longer they take, the longer before I can eat. Let me tell you, I am starving!

I don't feel like writing today. It wasn't a bad day persay.. just have some emotions built up and I don't want to share them with anyone.

I just have one thing to say.
Your shoes are sooo cute! They look just like ballet slippers for men!!
best part of today, hands down! haha

Thank you for being involved in the discussion today.
I had my coffee.
Whatcha drinkin?
Verona, you should know that.
I came to school just for you.
Hello Rebekah, have you been staying out of trouble?
Let me review the kindergarden lesson from yesterday kids...
You don't have to sign up for the test, just go in.
You have to sign up for the test Bekah.
Do I have to sign up for the test? No.
Why do I have an appointment?
This is the coolest dressing room I've ever seen!
I love these shorts, I didn't try on any others.
I wouldn't want a guy to do my makeup, that's just too weird.
I've had a guy do my makeup.
I'm excited for prom, it's all I can think about.
I'm excited that I'm ditching prom.
Can you come in early? Yes.
You always have the cutest outfits!
Did you dye your hair?
No I just didn't take a shower.
I love cold caramel apple spices. I always leave them in my car for a couple days and then they taste perfectly!
You know, we make them iced right?
That would speed up the process.
Wow, that is a bright shirt you have on.
My wife likes it.
You know that place I have an interview at? It's a scam.
I drove to the place that she gave me, it doesn't exist. Only air.
I talked to Bethany today and she doesn't need you until after summer.
Oh, that long?
Yep so you get to stay here for a few more months!
Lift up your leg! I want to see those shoes!
I'm in a dress.
That's awkward.


Goodnight.

Today was virtually uneventful. I slept the day away, literally.
I slept through three of my classes without a problem.
I came home and slept for a good three hours.
In between my naps, I got a call concerning a job interview but it all seems a little sketchy. I've still got a interview set up for Monday, nonetheless.
My dad says that we need to talk about how I need to start acting my age.
I am kind of surprised at how little energy I've had throughout the day.
I'm assuming that my mornings are going to begin with a cup of coffee again, since I finally got my markout. Here we go again..
I was reading in Matthew today, when I wasn't sleeping and although I've already read it a hundred times over, it's my favorite chapter to read.


"Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nore reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? "

"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble."

Matthew 6: 25-27 & 34

What a day! I finally got my sushi fix. Lindsay and I had Philadelphia rolls, Las Vegas rolls and Dragon rolls. They were all delicious. We also got frozen yogurt, but mine wasn't very good.. it was cookies and cream. Then I went to Tmobile to see if I could get a new phone since mine isn't working too great and I couldn't without my parents with me.. I hate being a minor, did you know that? So I spent some time reading about Kant today and then proceeded to clean my store for 6 hours. It drained me of all energy. What I want to know is, how the heck does someone get poop spread around the toilet?! Like EVERYWHERE.. It was the sickest thing I have ever had to clean in my life. Of course I am the one who had to clean it up. One customer asked me today if I was the Starbucks Janitor because the only thing he ever sees me do is clean. I practically am. I also found out today that my transfer to Gilbert/2o2 seems very likely to actually happen. I am so excited to start something new, I have heard nothing but great things about the manager there.

I love it when it seems as if a sermon is directed right at you.
Forgiveness--it isn't a matter of justice, but rather a matter of the heart. I think it's easy for people to forgive when they feel as if what has been owed to them, such as an explanation or something has been done to make up for the hurt, has been paid. However that isn't true forgiveness, that is the foundation of resentment which leads to a very bitter mindset. The people that have hurt you wouldn't be able to repay what they "owe" in a lifetime anyway. I think I have spent a lot of time these past few months allowing resentment to build in me for the people that have hurt me. I have been betrayed and abandoned by some of my closest friends, people that I fully trusted and ever since the collapse of this trust, I have let the anger build. I've been focusing on a way for justice to be served. That is definitely not the way it works. They don't owe me anything.. not an explanation for their behavior, not even a service to make up for the hurt they have caused, nothing. It is hard for me to believe that that is how my mind works. After all that God has forgiven me of, without providing a penalty for my actions, I still pursue this mindset of resentment to the people who sin against me. Who am I to demand that they pay what they owe? I am worse than them. It's one thing to acknowledge that this is how I have been living and it's another to change it. That is definitely something that I am going to be praying for help in, to change my perspective on forgiveness.
Matthew 18:21

I decided that I would like to commit to writing something every day. I think as time goes on, I would enjoy the opportunity to reminisce on life as it is now and continue to see myself change.

Today has seemed to be everlasting. And get this, it's not even over yet! By no means has it been bad, just dragging on and on. Work was fine today. I love working on Sundays because they are typically my longest shift and for some reason, my Sunday regulars are quite pleasant. Peter and Elizabeth brought in their granddaughter and she was the most beautiful lil four year old that I have ever seen. I love working with Ashley, she is the most impressive shift I have ever encountered! I have yet to see her have an off day. That is really all that there is worth mentioning today, just a long day at work. I am headed to church in not too long and maybe that will inspire another blog post for today.

I loved today. I spent the afternoon with my mother and had a delicious lunch at Oreganos. The waitress was really annoying me because she would take our soda glasses and refill them so often, that even if I hadn't even taken a sip since the last time she had filled it, she would fill it some more! And it was weird because the last time I ate at Oreganos was sometime in October I think and I saw one of my regulars at work there.. and today he was there again! What are the odds? Then I got a call asking if I could cover a pre-close shift at Southern/Longmore, and I told them I could come when I got off at Gilbert/2o2 at 7! Do you realize how far those 2 stores are from each other? It was ridiculous, it took me 30 minutes to get there. I really enjoyed working at Gilbert, that store is as close to perfect as it gets. 3 of my regulars came in and a whole bunch of people I knew from school, it was pretty weird. I'm not used to seeing anyone I know at work. Then at Southern/Longmore, I don't really know why they needed me to come in, because basically everything was done. They didn't have anything for me to do and so I was trying to figure out little things that I normally do and then I would discover that it had already been done! They basically kept me around to make it worth the gas, but it was really pointless. I'm not complaining though, I definitely could use that extra money. Their store was so gross though, I've never worked in a store that dirty. I don't think they ever wipe anything off.. it was gross. The people were really nice though.

So, all in all, it was a very great day!

I spent the majority of last night reading over blog postings that I had written in the past. I remember the things I used to struggle with and it is a cool opportunity to see how God helped me to make my way through it and grow to become the person I am today. So I decided to start a new blog and consider sharing a more in-depth view of my day to day life with whoever chooses to read..

Today I am working at Gilbert/2o2, and to say I am nervous would be an understatement. It is the store I am hoping to transfer to, so I am having to prove myself. I am really going to miss my store. There are so many things that I love about it and I feel comfortable there. Sometimes in life, you hit a point where you have to jump out of your comfort zone. It seems like I have been bumping up against that point constantly over the last few months and have a strong feeling that won't be changing anytime soon. Don't get me wrong, I am so excited for all of the new opportunites that have come up lately and can't wait to begin this new stage of life. Graduation is only a month away. It is a terrifying thought, but even more exciting. I feel like my body roams the halls of the school everyday, but my mind is vacant. I don't see how this year of high school has been beneficial to me, so I have fallen into just going through the motions. I love to learn and this year, I have been robbed of that opportunity. My teachers act as if I wouldn't know how to tie my shoes or fill out a job application. I'm tired of constantly being condescended.


I think this post is extra long because it's my first one. The foundation of my current blog.. so I had to do a major update of where life is at. Now it is time for me to get on with the day!

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