Is it possible to say something about nothing?

I came across my seemingly ancient blog posts from months ago which made me ask myself when the last time I had written out my thoughts, the answer being the last time I posted on here. Writing is one of my greatest passions and my clearest form of communication, for me to stop would be equivalent to asking my dad to quit correcting my grammatical errors or handwriting on the fridge notes.
Besides, after reading through posts from the recent past, I realized I had so much to say as well as realizing how much I enjoy thinking back to all I have been through and my thoughts at that exact place in life.
I don't think I have allowed myself enough credit to how horrible my senior year was. To keep my composure perfect is like asking a 4 year-old to speak perfect English. I will admit that I sucked in so many ways; at maintaining good grades, friendships, and a good attitude while at work. However, I had an entire schedule full of teachers who condescended me and treated me so badly that it took everything in me to keep my mouth shut and take it. That was the best way I knew how to show God's love. On top of that, I had a bad support system, dealing with Sarah who was choosing to rebel at the time and growing so close to a friend who was just using me only when I benefitted her. To go even further, work had become such an immense stress that pushed on my shoulders every single day. I was expected to achieve ridiculous things that no one else could even dream of accomplishing. Not only was I instructed to do things that no one wanted to do, I was placed in drive-thru so often it seemed as if the only words that escaped my lips were those composing my greeting message to customers. Beyond all of that, I was even required to maintain a great attitude, as if it were my privledge to take part in these tedious, tiring, and monotonous tasks every single day. I am surprised at how well I got through it all, to be perfectly honest. Of course, I could never take the credit of that. If it weren't for the presence of God in my life, I would have screwed up so much worse. I am thankful to be done with such an emotionally exhausting stage of my life to say the least.
Although that part of my life ended, a new stressful era begun. I still had the pressure of a terrible work environment, but my hours were significantly increased to where I would be spending my entire life at that store. The only time I had off, I would either be at school or working on my excessive amount of homework. If I wasn't doing any of those things, I would be trying to save a friendship that couldn't be saved. I got through all of that, and I learned so much this summer through all of the things I have had to face head on.
Now, I have entered the rewarding stage of my summer and I couldn't be more excited. Although I am completely broke, it has brought my family so close together. We are going through this financially stressful time together and it has gone such a long way. My parents are my cheerleaders, the ones who always seem to give me pep talks to continue on, even when life seems unbearably difficult. I have also grown so much closer to my heavenly Father, who I could not get through one minute without. I can't even start my day without a glimpse of His Word and the picture of the cross melted in my mind. All the hard work at my old store, and my new store has finally paid off. Not only do I absolutely love going to work again, I am being promoted on MY BIRTHDAY. That is in two weeks. Two weeks that will fly by! Out of all the people who could step up to take the position, Bethany chose me. God could not have blessed me in a better way, at a better time. I have all the time in the world to focus on this new challenge and embrace the fun that is going to come with it. I will also be recieving a pay raise, so that will help me start school even sooner than I had imagined. Most of my friendships that suffered due to my stress level over senior year have been restored, which is so nice and comforting; especially being able to see the changes God has made in their lives.
To address a failed relationship, I am completely at peace. I will fully admit that I failed to set the boundaries at the proper time, but I wasn't prepared to take that on. All I knew was that I needed some comfort from a Christian friend and that was provided. When I started getting better and moving on from such a tough stage in life, I started getting back to my normal self; the one that holds boundaries and lines more secure than it being planted in the earth. I've always been that way. I'm sorry he got used to me not noticing when he crossed a line. I can't help that is the person I am. Our season of friendship is well past over and I can only continue to pray that he will see the benefits and blessing of that. I wish it didn't have to end so painfully. I am so relieved to finally be moving on and I hope he feels the same.
Last night was my first chance to attend seven:ten. It was the best experience church has created for me. I felt so intimate with God, like he was speaking to me, instead of Paul. I felt no judgement there, but a strong welcome. I met some new people that were very encouraging to me. I was reunited with some old friends, and it was so cool to see how their lives have changed. There was one instance of immaturity, but it came from someone that I have come to expect that behavior. I'm beginning to view it comically because of how low he will stoop.
Excitement and thankfulness are the words to experss where my life is at right now. I can't wait to see how God uses all of my newly acquired time to show His love to those around me and teach me so much more.

I will continue to post every so often. After reading all my previous posts, I noticed that I can be slightly sentimental at times. I enjoy seeing where life and God have taken me, which gives me strength to keep moving on!